tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36584549206616446172024-03-14T00:22:51.435-07:00Hell's Writing Kitchen Unknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger68125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658454920661644617.post-38334266276203051422013-11-23T21:44:00.002-08:002013-11-23T21:45:24.904-08:00Last Blog Post This is farewell for now with a side of advice.<br />
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Thanks to all of you who have checked in here. I hope some of my experiences, with Dragon Naturally Speaking, etc., might have helped a few of you keep plugging away. </div>
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Writing is Hell and don't you forget it. Yeah, it's a sit-down job, and I've been grateful to be able to get off my feet and make money too. But still, this business is damn hard work. Each separate piece is damn hard. If you're doing all the pieces yourself, you deserve a medal. Or at least some solid sales.</div>
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The basics are still the basics.</div>
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Keep writing and your craft will improve.</div>
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Keep working on your speed and it will pick up.</div>
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Keep setting goals you actually have to reach for, and you'll reach some. It doesn't matter what your odds are, or how many you reach, at least you reached. At least you stretched yourself. That makes you...stretchier, if nothing else. That makes you the mouse with his shoes draped over his shoulder, not worrying about who moved the cheese, or where it went, just prepared to find it. Prepared with shoes and attitude.</div>
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Take some time to see what works for you. But don't get addicted to analyzing it all. That's just a procrastination tactic. Try to see those for what they are.</div>
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Find a friend to lean on and hold up. A writing friend. For this to be a spouse would be rare indeed. Find someone who is at the same stage you're at, or slightly higher. Then do whatever you can to help them. You always get paid back with interest.</div>
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If your family hasn't realized you're a writer by now, start dressing all in black. Quoting Poe as you walk down the hall. Scribbling things on the furniture. If they don't create some writing space for you, and insist you use it, you're not trying hard enough.</div>
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Embrace the Cray Cray. It will increase the space around you. If you're looking for love and affection, stick to Roses are Red poems and never, ever wear black.</div>
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Read. For hellsakes, read. And write something that goes against the rules you've learned. We all need to see more of that. Take a rule. Bend it 'til it breaks. Toss it in a fire and dance around the flames.</div>
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I'm going to try for more pithy posts, like Seth Godin. So if you want to follow me, go hit my author page on Facebook. That's where I'll be setting up shop. LL Muir. I'm sure you can find it.</div>
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And that's it.</div>
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Four books down. Two more to go, in December. Not going to hit 7 like I'd hoped.</div>
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26 pounds down. The Diet Pepsi is next on the drop list. I've already started the fitness part. Wish me luck. Leaving for Scotland in T minus...4 and 1/2 months!!!! HOLY CRAP!</div>
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And as always, </div>
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Thank you for playing.</div>
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Lesli</div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658454920661644617.post-69457478554064376062013-11-15T15:04:00.002-08:002013-11-15T15:07:09.410-08:00Word Count and Professional EnvyIt's been a productive week, thank heavens.<br />
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Saturday was the NaNo write-in. There were around 16 writers attending, with about ten staying the entire time from 10 am to 7 pm. We took an hour off for lunch, a ten minute break every hour, and did 8 solid sessions. And the grand total of all words written...drumroll...was 81.000+!!!!<br />
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I got in just over 8,000 myself, all on the sequel to my YA that I plan to finish up in January. With Christmas and the end of the year sliding closer, I have to be a little realistic about what I'm going to be able to get finished in 2013. (6 1/2 weeks left, btw)<br />
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I did get the western romance proofread and polished. I also had a friend teach me how to do my own formatting so when errors are brought to my attention, I can go in and fix them myself. YAY! And this is no light accomplishment; I'm not technically gifted and I really doubted I could wrap my old wrinkly mind around it. BUT I DID!<br />
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So the book went up yesterday. And just like every other time I've put a book up, 24 hours later, I'm antsy to get the next one out. What can I say. I find relaxing a waste of good writing time. So tomorrow, I'll be working on Kiss This again. I'm going to expand it a little. But I've got some advertising coming up on Christmas Kiss, so I basically have ten days to get this up. I've got a reverse timeline figured out so I can stay on schedule. I LOVE reverse timelines. I have no idea why. Maybe it's a residual thing from running a flower shop and having a hundred steps necessary to pull off wedding productions.<br />
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Anyway.<br />
Here's what's new from discussions with Supe.<br />
We are working on professional envy, or rather, resisting it. And the best way to resist it is to stop watching what other writers are doing, what they're accomplishing, and thinking about what we can do to be equally successful. We realize it's something we've spent way too much time on, and it has left us feeling like failures. Which we're not.<br />
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For my part, I've just published my tenth book. The third this year. And I've got at least three coming out before the end of the year. Not a bad year.<br />
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We're coming into the home stretch. What can you--reasonably--get done before 2014.<br />
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<br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658454920661644617.post-59136292882734957122013-11-07T23:17:00.000-08:002013-11-07T23:17:33.903-08:00The Writing Life is Good! November 7, 2013 ThursdayFour days since the last post.<br />
Two more pounds down.<br />
One book in the can.<br />
Half of another story edited.<br />
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Life is good.<br />
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Okay, so it doesn't hurt that the book I've just finished and polished is a novella. And so is the next one. But I'm counting victories here, not pages. And it looks like I'll finish editing the second one by Sunday night. On Monday I'll finally get around to starting the edits on Isobelle--I know, I know--but I needed to get these things off my plate first.<br />
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The second one is Kiss This, a Christmas Wedding story. Here is the cover.<br />
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I'm really crazy about it. And now that I've had some time away from the story, I've come back to edit it and find that I absolutely love it.<br />
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(The reason I struggled with finishing this one is because it starts in a flower shop and writing it was like going back to work in a flower shop. I could almost feel the pressure of getting these wedding flowers just right, getting the set up on schedule, and making the bride happy--AND IT WASN'T EVEN REAL!)<br />
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I will be working on the cover for the Western this weekend, in down moments (hah!) so I can get it up and for sale as soon as I get my final edits back.<br />
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Can you tell I'm loving this? I am loving this. I'm loving that I'm actually crossing things off my list instead of just re-writing lists. And sometimes I love the fact that I have a poor memory for the simple fact that I can read something I wrote a while back and be surprised, because I don't remember much.<br />
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The NaNo write-in, at my house, is on Saturday. A few have had to back out, so we're down to about fifteen writers. The food will be great. The energy will be magic. And I hope to get 8k done on Freaking Off the Grid, the sequel to Somewhere Over the Freaking Rainbow. So many projects wrapping up. It will be so fun to start some new series.<br />
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What's in yer wallet?Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658454920661644617.post-64759725661111180232013-11-04T21:32:00.002-08:002013-11-04T21:32:30.643-08:00Writers should be single... November 4, 2013...and childless.<br />
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I knew Sunday would be mostly a wash because of the baby blessing, but I still held out hope for a late night of editing.<br />
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Nope.<br />
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I knew the bulk of Monday would be a wash because I had to take my daughter in for some outpatient surgery. She ended up being admitted because her blood wasn't as thin as they wanted it to be. So that meant babysitting tonight on top of a family dinner party for my daughter in law. After the dinner, I had sworn upon a bible (all but) that I was going to hug everyone and go to the office, but then that babysitting thing made me a liar.<br />
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Tomorrow, the day I had planned to abandon all my kids into each other's care, I will yet again be watching my granddaughters until Mommy gets out of the hospital, and probably after that as well.<br />
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So.<br />
Don't tell the Universe, but...<br />
Wednesday, I'm going to work all damned day.<br />
Thursday, I'm going to work all damned day.<br />
Friday, I'm going to work all damned day.<br />
At my office. So help me.<br />
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I was hoping to be caught back up with my schedule by tonight, but it looks like instead of catching up on two days, I'll be getting another two days behind. But never fear. The week isn't over yet. The Ghost and Mrs. Wiggs is going to be finished before Friday night, so help me.<br />
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So help me!<br />
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I sound like Mike Wizouski.<br />
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BTW<br />
Another pound down today. 21 in all.<br />
Then I had half a piece of chocolate cake.<br />
I'm trying not to be too hard on myself...Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658454920661644617.post-25376914587156267382013-11-02T13:03:00.000-07:002013-11-02T13:03:19.954-07:00NaNo Day 2, November 2, 2013Big day today.<br />
But I guess it only seems big because I have some energy, which has been scarce the last...ten years.<br />
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Had pizza two days in a row and still didn't gain anything, so that's great. Pound number 20 just will not fall, however, so I'm going to have to go back to my original plan of using the dragon while I walk. This will work out swimmingly for NaNo because I can get my YA done this month while I walk, but get my other projects done in the office.<br />
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Dragon words so far today, 450 ish. I'm not going to be doing anymore tonight because I'm polishing up my western novella so I can get it to my beta readers by tomorrow. Tomorrow we'll be blessing the granddaughter, but tomorrow night I'll be polishing Kiss This, the Christmas romance set against a winter wedding background. That, too, should be ready for first readers by about Wednesday. Wednesday I'll hit the dragon again and get caught up on my NaNo count so I'm on track by the time the party starts.<br />
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But what feels great is crossing off these smaller projects, getting a running start before delving into Isobelle. A book of my heart, that's what it is. And I want to get it right.<br />
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I'm back, baby.<br />
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Yes, I've actually been using my office! And being productive again has revived me. It really has. I'm a pretty ambitious person by nature, so when I'm moving and shaking, I'm happy.<br />
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Speaking of giggling, I'm still 19 lbs. down despite having pizza for Halloween along with an inch of a KitKat bar and two whoppers. Apparently the world didn't end, since I'm still here, but I don't think that's going to be a temptation again.<br />
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I have realized that all my eating--every bite I put in my mouth for the past ten+years, has been driven by emotion. Nothing about the joy of food. All about my entitlement to it.<br />
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And now, I'm working toward being entitled to go to Scotland, entitled to wear jeans, entitled to feel good. And boy, do I feel good. Percentage of body weight-wise, 19 lbs. isn't much. But it was an important benchmark. Lots of things have changed. And my energy is AT LEAST ten times what it was.<br />
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Since Tuesday, I've gotten two major projects off my to-do list. One project is off to my agent so she can send it on to some interested editors. That has been a dark cloud over my head for two months. Cloud gone.<br />
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I have another project I have to finish tonight by midnight and get sent off to an editor. That's what I'll be doing today instead of getting started on NaNo. And, speaking of NaNo, I'll be getting my 1666 words per day written on a new project on top of what I have scheduled for editing. And I'm going to use my dragon to do it. 1666 words can be done in about 45 minutes tops.<br />
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Having a NaNo write-in at my house on Saturday. So far, I've got 18 writers coming. If you're interested, let me know. We're in Utah.<br />
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I don't know if it's the New Moon coming or what, but Supe has been bitten by the ambition bug again and we're gearing up for another uber productive month like last August was. We're done talking and analyzing. It's time to shut up and get this stuff written. Great stories, buried in one's subconscious, do no one any good. After all, I don't get to read them either--not until they come out of my fingers.<br />
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So.<br />
Let's play Michelangelo.<br />
Let's get our chisels and hammers and get to work, setting these works of art free. Slow does not equal beauty. Let's take advantage of the NaNo energy that's out there, whether or not you're technically participating, and move some earth.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658454920661644617.post-71286135441364426762013-10-29T23:30:00.000-07:002013-10-29T23:30:06.589-07:00Happy happy happy! October 29, 2013The office has been christened.<br />
No, I didn't spill my Diet Pepsi or anything. I just actually got some real work done there tonight.<br />
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I couldn't believe how hard it was to actually get there. Resistance pulled in four different directions but I finally just cut the strings and ran.<br />
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A friend came to see the office when I got there, but instead of becoming a distraction, she pulled out her laptop and started working on her own project for an hour or so. Then, when I started to lag, another writer showed up. I thought she'd come for the same, just to check out the office, but she pulled out her laptop and got to work.<br />
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What a blessing both of these friends were for me today. Instead of sitting down and staring at a screen, waiting for the worst to happen, for that nightmare to come true where in I stare blankly at the screen and never get around to working, these two reminded me that we're not just messing around here. We're not just meeting for a chat. We're not using the office as a private place to chat and veg. Offices are for work.<br />
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And so I worked.<br />
I had an editing project listed for the day, and by gum that's what I did! 32 pages edited today. And little breakthroughs on the story. And a little bit of inspiration about the upcoming editing project.<br />
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There was no writer's block. There was no terror. And mostly because I was not alone on this first day of true change.<br />
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And then...I came home.<br />
The only work I've done at home is email, and this post. Facebook? You bet. Because it's not like I'm supposed to be working, right?<br />
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Right.<br />
I've left the work at the office.<br />
I've come home to find that the smell in the fridge was NOT in fact cauliflower. The cauliflower left the building yesterday and the smell is worse. So I'm going to clean out the fridge now, even though it's 12:30 am. And even though I've already cleaned a bathroom today.<br />
Why not?<br />
It's not like I should be writing right now.<br />
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And just like that, the clouds part and Lesli becomes one of the regular people...if only for a little while.<br />
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Cheers!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658454920661644617.post-57356115193847165652013-10-28T21:43:00.000-07:002013-10-28T21:44:20.138-07:00Fire Hoses and Tylonol October 28, 2013I tried. I really did.<br />
I had the best intentions in the world.<br />
I had a plan.<br />
I got everything off my plate. I suppressed the immediate need for a haircut. I had five hours on my hands and an office waiting. I came dropped off Rock Jr. and came back to the house to shower and grab my laptop.<br />
Then my husband called.<br />
Another medical emergency. Are you kidding me?<br />
Took him to the doc. Ran tests. Not life-threatening, thank Heaven.<br />
Got him home, ran to get meds, fix dinner.<br />
Phone rings.<br />
Baby won't stop crying.<br />
Leave my husband to go sit with baby while daughter goes for pain meds.<br />
Ear infections.<br />
Tylonol and Ibuprofen were inspired by God himself.<br />
Daughter will take her to the doc in the am.<br />
Another of life's problem's solved.<br />
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I'm peeing on fires here when what I really want to do is hose the place down, hop on a motorcycle, and ride away. And when I come back, I want the place to be clean, all faces to be wearing smiles, and for there to be no trace of the mess I left behind.<br />
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Too much to ask?<br />
Apparently, yes it is.<br />
That is why we have/need fantasy/fiction.<br />
I'm going to call the coast guard and have a novel flown in to rescue me.<br />
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But wait!<br />
That's what my own stories used to do for me. They were the perfect fantasies. I wrote them to get away the same way I read to escape.<br />
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THAT is my problem. These projects aren't escapism for me anymore. They are work.<br />
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I need to turn them back into...chocolate...somehow.<br />
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New plan for tomorrow. As soon as The Rock feels like he can take care of himself, I'm jumping in the car and heading to the office, and by hell I'm going to find that fantasy lost between the pages and make them fun again.<br />
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Also, Supe and I had a little breakthrough today that we believe is going to help us get our first drafts down with a lot more polish than usual. Stay tuned. I'll tell you all about it tomorrow.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658454920661644617.post-71186956945017553082013-10-24T23:12:00.001-07:002013-10-24T23:12:26.311-07:00False Start Thursday October 24, 2013I woke with high hopes today, but here is what I got done.<br />
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I found two free chairs for the office. I took a lamp and a few things over when I went to unlock the doors for the owners. (They still needed to remove a desk and chair from the last guy.) Logan took his crayons and things over to load in the second desk. He's very excited to go work there.<br />
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The rest of the day was full of errands.<br />
Phone store again for some details.<br />
Grocery store for some drugs.<br />
Pizza store for some dinner for the wave of kids coming from out of town to help my son unload.<br />
Went home and cooked chicken breasts for the guys who were coming to work out and study. They ended up finding a quieter place to study after they worked out and ate. Who can blame them?<br />
Cooked the pizza, ended up feeding the daughter and family because he got off late and she and the three granddaughters were still here.<br />
Sent lots of pity emails to my husband because he was working until midnight. Big program goes live in two weeks. Sure hope we're still alive to see it done.<br />
So, after all that, I guess it's no surprise I didn't get to decorate/organize my office.<br />
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Tomorrow, I think my daughter's going to need some TLC because her leg started hurting tonight because she did too much in the last couple of days. She's not the only one to pay for that, damnit. And "I told you so" isn't as satisfying as you might think.<br />
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Upside?<br />
I get to hold a wee bairn a bit through the day. I get to tie sheets around the kitchen table so the 3 year olds can play hammocks. I will disregard the weather and make a pot of soup. And when they all leave, and the dust settles--Oh, wait. They won't be leaving because their daddy will be here to help my son unload yet again.<br />
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When the Jews were coming up with the phrase Oy, vay! they should have chosen something a little more expressive.<br />
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So, since tomorrow will be more of the same, I'll spare you a post. I'll let you know how I do on Saturday. I'm going to find someone to entertain Rock Jr. and I'm going to head to the office for the day since The Rock will be working until very late again. I'm going to get something major crossed off the list, so help me.<br />
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See you on Saturday night.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658454920661644617.post-52108074289563168722013-10-23T23:30:00.002-07:002013-10-23T23:30:51.794-07:00An Experiment in Separation October 23, 2013Good Morning Campers!<br />
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Now that my roller coaster has come to a complete stop...<br />
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I woke up this morning with a happy head cold. Happy I was not going to have any babysitting to do today and happy I could take my son to his day program then come back home for a nap. Then I happily trotted off to lunch with my closest friend, Annie Adams.<br />
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In the afternoon, I picked up my son then headed over to sign a contract and pick up the keys to my new office. Yippee! Then I went to the phone store and got a new cell. Both the office and the phone are part of my new Experiment in Separation.<br />
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I'm sorry if I'm repeating myself from any earlier posts, but there are plenty of reasons to get an away-from-home-office.<br />
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Your mileage may vary, of course, but my reasons include:<br />
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I've got offspring moving back into my basement. My youngest son and his wife are getting serious about school and until they get some traction, they'll stay here. That takes up all three bedrooms in the basement=basement is no longer an option for office space, even if I were to be able to stand to be below ground. (I hate basements.)<br />
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Secondly, my current bedroom office now has a crib in it for the granddaughter. I tried typing while she naps. It did <i>NOT</i> work. And I tried all week, not just one day. This leaves me no room in the house for a private office.<br />
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Another reason I want to have my working desk away from the house is Supe's fault. She got an office 20-30 minutes away from her house. She goes there almost daily, gets her writing in, then goes home.<i> SHE LEAVES HER WORK AT THE OFFICE.</i> When she gets home, it's like...like...she gets to<i> RELAX! </i>She gets to stop thinking about work, about the project, about the characters. She doesn't have to think, while cooking dinner, "I could run in there and edit one more page before the chicken is done." She doesn't have to feel guilty about sitting and watching a tv show instead of plotting out her next story. She doesn't have to look at the clock during a family dinner and try to guess how many more words she can get written depending on when her family members head for their cars.<br />
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My husband ruled out buying a small shed and finishing as an office. I ruled out getting a camping trailer. I'm a big girl now. My writing is not a hobby. I do not want to be underground OR have a low ceiling. And I don't want my work haunting me from my bedroom.<br />
Am I asking too much?<br />
I think not.<br />
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So I'm going for Normal.<br />
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I found an office building near my house that gave me a great deal on rent PLUS a window. I was even willing to go without a window, but I lucked out. I have a lovely view of the mountains thanks to a second floor office window facing east. The room is large enough to hold two desks and a love seat. The main desk I'll use for editing. The small one for new words only. Also, Rock Jr. thinks the second desk is for him. And it will be, on Tuesdays and Thursdays.<br />
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That's right, folks.<br />
I have a schedule. Just like a normal job. <i>Whoohoo!</i><br />
Instead of thinking about writing 16 hours a day and maybe getting three good hours in (if you add up all the little pecking I do during the day, on a good day) I'm going to spend about five hours at the office Monday through Friday. And three nights a week, I'm going to go back for more. I hope to get around 30 hours in per week. I start on Friday. I'm going to be realistic and not plan to get anything other than organization done tomorrow.<br />
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Tonight I drove past the church and got three teens and one Scout leader (friends all) to come help me load up all the furniture and take it to the office. I paid them and took them for shakes and fries when they were done. They more than earned it. I had some heavy stuff.<br />
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Tomorrow's going to be sweeeet!<br />
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Oh!<br />
And this is why I needed a phone.<br />
As far as cell phones go, mine was so old my kids groan when I pull it out. They're embarrassed.<br />
But no longer. I got a smart phone. Yes. I'll be holding a small rectangular plate up to my face to speak to people, but apparently<i> THAT's</i> not embarrassing. The true reason I got it, however, was so I don't need yet another computer at the house. I can check email, etc., from this fancy phone. And if I want to get any writing done, I'll just have to go to the office, or break out the Alphasmart or Dragon.<br />
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So.<br />
I'm separating my home/family life from my work life. Finally.<br />
And starting Friday, I'll even stop talking about it here. And when I come home, I can focus on the people around me, on the household tasks I never seem to have time for because I'm always <i>TRYING </i>to write.<br />
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Still, I wouldn't drop by unannounced.<br />
Hah!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658454920661644617.post-59447130772095230272013-10-21T21:17:00.004-07:002013-10-21T21:17:47.184-07:00Miraculous News! October 21, 2013A wonderful turn of events this morning.<br />
Forgive me if I copy and paste my Facebook post, but I'm completely drained and can't type it all up again.<br />
Going to bed early with a happy heart. I'll post something writerly tomorrow, aye?<br />
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<i>"<span style="background-color: white; color: #37404e; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.800000190734863px; line-height: 18px;">LYNDSI UPDATE: Miracles were produced at Davis Hospital today. During the second procedure of the day, they found that not only were the blood clots gone, but her leg had grown its own bypass vein and cleaned itself out. And if that was not enough, the failing vein had also recovered and was working fine. They had expected a leg full of clots the density of glue. The nurses were all but dancing ar</span><span class="text_exposed_show" style="background-color: white; color: #37404e; display: inline; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.800000190734863px; line-height: 18px;">ound her bed as they wheeled her into recovery. She will NOT be staying in ICU for 3 days. The meds are working just fine after all. She's coming home. And neither procedure was invasive enough to keep her from going home to her own house. No more torture at Mother's.</span></i><br />
<span class="text_exposed_show" style="background-color: white; color: #37404e; display: inline; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.800000190734863px; line-height: 18px;"><i>We are very very very very grateful for the prayers sent on her behalf. They were golden, baby. God is good."</i></span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658454920661644617.post-21881102879658702232013-10-20T22:11:00.001-07:002013-10-20T22:11:45.658-07:00Sunday, October 20 It was a party weekend. Real crazy stuff, like dressing up as minions from Despicable Me. My autistic son dressed up as Gru. The granddaughters played the parts of the three little girl. Great fun. A little parade around the street with various whistles and dancing to The Monster Mash. It's a yearly tradition, if I haven't told you that already.<br />
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Tomorrow we'll be repeating another tradition, one I hope to never repeat again.<br />
My daughter must redo her leg surgery to remove blood clots that formed even though her blood was dangerously thin. I have no idea what they think they're doing, but I have to trust that they know, that maybe I haven't had it all explained clearly. All we can do is pray.<br />
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So today I stayed busy to keep my mind off things. I ran around town collecting tables off KSL.com so we'll have a bunch of tables for our NANO write-in I host at my house every year. We're going to have a whopping crowd and most need a table to write. I'm pretty sure we've got that covered now. That will happen in Nov. 9th. If you want to join us, in the Layton, Utah area, contact me through here or my website, llmuir.weebly.com.<br />
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My daughter's dilemma aside, I will be honest and say I am scared to death.<br />
I am afraid I will never get another word written, another word edited.<br />
I open up a file and move my cursor into place, then I can't seem to care about what is already there--at least not enough to change it. And eventually, I click on something else. When it's time to shut my computer down for the night, I realize I did indeed open a word file that day. I save it again, even though I know that nothing changed.<br />
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And I promise myself "next time."<br />
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I don't even know if the office space will make anything different.<br />
Yes, I plan to write at night. I've planned where I'm going to put the furniture.<br />
I've got it all there, in my head. And I try to imagine myself bent over a keyboard, eyes glued to the screen, mind oblivious to my clever surroundings because I am working furiously to get the next project finished, then the next, and so on.<br />
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And you know what I see?<br />
I see myself sitting at the perfectly positioned desk in the perfect amount of lamplight staring at a word document, hands frozen on a keyboard.<br />
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Is this writer's block? I don't think so. This feels more threatening than that. I've worked through writer's block enough to know there are certain things that work for me. I just follow the yellow brick road, one brick at a time.<br />
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I'm afraid my life won't let me write anymore. I'm afraid I'll never get to put my foot down and demand my writing time because writing time will pale in importance to what I need to be doing for my daughter and her daughters. Is that selfish or what?<br />
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I'm also afraid that I've become a terribly selfish person to even worry about such things at a time like this.<br />
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But here is the question.<br />
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Can we be writers and not be selfish?<br />
Can we be proficient writers and not be selfish?<br />
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I had never been accused of being a work-a-holic until I was published. And believe me, the term work-a-holic was never a bad thing. It was always a drive, a work-ethic I lacked, or felt I lacked. So when I finally had a reason, a sound reason, and an actual drive, I felt like I was an over-night success. I'd finally found a way to work and love it.<br />
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But now, in the face of real life and real danger, it seems like I've been playing pretend, like I've been playing in an over-sized doll house and my mother has come for me, to tell me I can't play here anymore. And suddenly I realize that none of it was real--when I'd been so sure it was real!<br />
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I had another realization today to pile on top of that. I went for a walk. (No more weight lost, but none gained back, even with a couple slices of pizza this weekend.) But as I was walking around the block I realized there were some distinct smells that were actually getting through to me. (No sense of smell for years, then I got a little sense back. Any identifiable smell is a celebration!) But the thing I realized was that I was absolutely compelled to figure out the best way to describe those smells on paper so that someone reading it could smell it too.<br />
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You see? I am a writer. I can't stop from being one. But what if I never get the chance to write them all down? What if I forget? What if I never smell them again and thus, never remember what I was going to say?<br />
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You see? Terrified. Of everything.<br />
So I'm going to record them here. At least I'm writing a blog, right? And if this is all I can do, for now, I'm going to get the words out. If I can remember...<br />
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...the spice of dying leaves...mixing with the unmistakable pungency of wood-smoke from a great distance away...a great distance because the smell was spread evenly through the air, not concentrated on my left or right, as it would be if the fire were nearby...<br />
...there, down that road, someone was cooking...apples...the smell of them so tart and fresh when it hit my nose I could almost hear the sound biting into me...the same sound I make biting into one of them...<br />
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Don't forget my Lyndsi in your prayers...Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658454920661644617.post-60401444796267403862013-10-17T23:21:00.004-07:002013-10-17T23:21:52.624-07:00Today's Theme: Holy Crap--October 17, 2013First of all--I LOST THREE MORE POUNDS.<br />
Booyah! This "Tickets to Scotland Diet" is working great! If you need to lose some weight, I suggest making a plan to do the one thing you've always dreamed of doing, only imagine yourself doing it in smaller clothes. Maybe it will work for you too.<br />
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The phone call I was hoping for today, from the office landlord, did not come. Maybe they'll have the contract ready tomorrow.<br />
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I spent the day shopping for the big birthday dinner we'd planned for our two sons. Then I tried to cook while watching the granddaughters. Needless to say, dinner was served late. Then, after everyone started leaving, my daughter had to be rushed to the emergency room again. So scary. False alarm, though. Everything still looks fine. But fear is a draining thing.<br />
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So.<br />
I'm headed to bed a little early. The twins are sleeping over and will wake me early.<br />
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My current plan is to sneak away from all gatherings to get some editing done. There is no way I'm going to get even one project edited and out before the end of the month, let alone two. But really, I have to. It's ridiculous how unproductive I've been. I can go through a day, all the way to the end, before I remember I'm supposedly a writer with work to do.<br />
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Sigh.<br />
Tomorrow, then.<br />
I shall endeavor to persevere.<br />
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What about you?Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658454920661644617.post-64442111655609134642013-10-16T23:42:00.000-07:002013-10-16T23:42:33.345-07:00FINALLY! October 16, 2013I finally found an office today. I'll hopefully be signing a contract tomorrow and moving in sometime this weekend. After seeing the place and negotiating a little, I headed home with a heavy load off my shoulders. I am finally going to be able to separate my job/writing from my home/family life. Wheeee!<br />
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Maybe you suffer from the same problem I have, no matter what time of day you write.<br />
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My computer is up and running all the time, but I'm rarely working.<br />
Even if I manage to remember to open my current wip file, that doesn't mean I get a chance to look at it with true concentration. Supe had this problem. She would always let little chores pull her away from the screen, even though she was home alone most of the day. When she hit a rough stretch, she'd get up and put in a load of laundry, then she'd never get back to the screen. There was always a meal to plan, some quick errand to run, etc. But now she has an office a good distance from home, and there is no running back to the house to put something in the dryer or the oven. And she's getting the work done.<br />
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It was October, I think three years ago, when I quit my job to write full time. I was one of the lucky few, I know. But I also had little choice. Our autistic son was finished with all the schooling programs available to him and our youngest wasn't around to watch him after school anymore. He was a senior, with a job and a life. The tending duties were back to me. But ever since then, I've struggled to keep tapping away, throughout the day, with no clear separation between working and relaxing and housekeeping, etc. My kids know to look for me in my office. I'm always in my office. But after spending 3 years in my office, I don't have a heck of a lot to show for it.<br />
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Will I be more focused in the office?<br />
How can I not? I won't have the internet. I can't be interrupted by phone calls. Surely that will make me more productive than I have been.<br />
Surely.<br />
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It's worth a shot at least.<br />
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I've got two parties going on this week. One tomorrow, one Saturday. By the first of next week I hope to have my happy haven up and running, my head in the game, and my hands on the keyboard. I can't wait to see what happens.<br />
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No editing again today. Babies, babies, and more babies. The same for the rest of the week. By next Monday, my duties will probably be a little lighter where babies are concerned, but even so, I'll have an office to head to when possible. It's not far away, but far enough. It's about three miles. Maybe I'll start walking to work somedays.<br />
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Hah!<br />
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So. Tell me. What might you do to fix your own focus?<br />
Are you looking for focus? Or are you looking for a way out of this job because it's just too much work?<br />
Go ahead. Tell me.<br />
<br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658454920661644617.post-37802281033141161882013-10-15T11:34:00.001-07:002013-10-15T11:34:19.278-07:00Back in the Saddle October 15, 2013`<span style="font-size: large;">I'm <b>back</b>. And it just so happens that "<b>back</b>" is the word of the day.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I'm <b>back</b> from the retreat. The Kiss It and Send It Ceremony was a good exercise in silliness, as always. I've handed off the ceremonial God of the Cave to someone else so the tradition can continue without me. I am not sure if I will be participating in the romance association much longer and I wanted to leave it in good hands just in case.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I came back to find that my daughter has recovered enough to move <b>back</b> home. She's able to walk without a walker and even take stairs if there is a railing. I'll still have her and the three wee ones in my care during the day, but she has made incredible progress whilst I was gone. We are all breathing a bit easier. The danger, we believe, has passed.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I'm <b>back</b> to a weight I haven't seen for three years! Not only did I not gain anything back while dining out in Park City, I've lost another pound since returning on Sunday. Down six. Thirteen total since the first of August. I'm pretty excited. Sugar is still foreign food to me. Temptation only comes when I am stressed or not paying attention. So I pay attention, and when I'm stressed, my new policy is that I will not look for food until the stress has passed. So far, that has saved my bacon.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">No. Not only did I not get a word, let alone a page, edited during the conference, I only opened my computer once to make sure I wasn't missing any emergency at home. I'd left my phone in the car, in the parking garage, and I felt like I needed to leave it there. If anything important happened, my family could have called the hotel, or the cell of a friend. Once I got up there, I just felt like the best therapy would be to unplug for the weekend. So I did.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">There were a couple of great presentations, but for the most part it was a weekend to gather and reconnect with other writers, to be able to look around a large room and see an army of my fellows who are always out there, feeling what I'm feeling, fighting what I fight--people who have my <b>back</b>.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">And for the most important "</span><b style="font-size: x-large;">back</b><span style="font-size: large;">" of the day, I'm </span><b style="font-size: x-large;">back </b><span style="font-size: large;">in the writer's saddle. Real life held me <b>back</b> for a while, but I have to return to production mode. And while I am looking for an office space yet again--my youngest and his wife will be moving in by the end of this month--I'm still going to have to work the work into the cracks of my day.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I guess I say that all the time, don't I?</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">But at least I'm still trying to claw my way up this muddy hill. I haven't given up.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Don't you give up either.</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658454920661644617.post-76859875671746039632013-10-09T21:35:00.002-07:002013-10-09T21:35:30.110-07:00October 9th, and a pause...Today was another hectic day that got away from me. My biggest accomplishment was again, getting everyone within the sound of my voice bathed, fed, warm enough, cool enough, and happy enough to keep the crying at the minimum.<br />
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So much for getting a running start at the weekend.<br />
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Tomorrow, I'll be headed to Deer Valley for the annual Romance Writers of America local conference. A few friends and I are headed up early, it being Thursday, so we can stretch our little party as far as possible without raising the suspicions of our families. The best part about the conference is a thing we call The Kiss It and Send It Ceremony. If you're curious, you can find the blog with the ceremony script<a href="http://kissitandsendit.blogspot.com/" target="_blank"> here</a>. We end up bungling it badly--every time--and having a grand yearly laugh.<br />
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I'm going to be editing while I'm there, I so swear. But I say that every year.<br />
I'll meet you back here on Monday night and confess my # of pages edited. Please realize anything over ten will be an accomplishment.<br />
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You've got lots of prep time. What are you going to accomplish this weekend? Give yourself some sort of goal, for pity's sake. Let's impress ourselves, shall we?Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658454920661644617.post-54340927153351709972013-10-08T22:22:00.003-07:002013-10-08T22:22:58.747-07:00Oct. 8, 2013On the diet front: I am holding steady at 5 new pounds down since buying my ticket. I have STILL had no chocolate or sugar. I did have some pizza crust, so I can't say I haven't had bread, but the lack of chocolate, sugar cereal, backed goods, etc., that I usually have on a daily basis has certainly made me feel different. A drastic change in diet won't count for much if I don't get back to walking.<br />
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In related news, I'm asking Santa for a punching bag.<br />
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On the writing front:<br />
No new words.<br />
No edited pages today.<br />
I'm blaming the houseguests, all of whom I am feeding, dressing, or wiping the butts thereof. Most of them are getting all of the above. (Only the granddaughters, not the daughter, thank goodness.)<br />
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On the mental front:<br />
I am going crazy. I feel ambition and drive rushing through my veins right now and there is nothing I can do about it. I keep leaning toward an office outside the house, but even if I had one right now, I wouldn't be able to go until 8 at night.<br />
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Any suggestions along office lines would be greatly appreciated. I'm out of ideas.<br />
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How are your fronts?<br />
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Btw, I removed the link to this blog from my website. I don't need my readers getting in here and finding out what a wack job I am.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658454920661644617.post-72142482138017760792013-10-08T00:18:00.000-07:002013-10-08T00:18:29.648-07:00I CAN SEE!! October 7, 2013I can't believe I'm about to admit this, but after five days without sugar, I can SEE.<br />
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No, I have no vision impairment other than a little bit of dry-eye from my lasik surgery. But apparently I've had a little bit of a brain impairment from my mega doses of sugar.<br />
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But every writer has their magic snacks, right? Lots of writers do well on a sugar high. I know of one who must have chocolate covered cinnamon bears when writing new words. I know another who, like me, has to line her M&M's up in rows according to color. I personally need those rows ordered as they would appear in a rainbow. For a while, I was nuking those dark chocolate pomegranate thingees. But no more. I can't handle the hard stuff anymore.<br />
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Like everything else, though, the snacking is just a procrastination tool. So now that I've been tough for five days and the headaches are proving it's just about out of my system, I'm going to treat snacking as a procrastination tool and avoid it all I can. Of course a little ritual can go a long way to getting your head in the game, but we can come up with rituals that don't include food, right?<br />
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Let me tell you what I can see today that I don't think I've been able to see for a long time...<br />
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I can see my characters a little clearer. I can see where I need a lot more emotion, a little more setting. I can see my own words like someone else wrote them and I can see FLAWS. I feel like I did the day I had my eyes done. I could see the pine trees on the mountains! <i>Individual</i> pine trees. And I feel like I haven't been seeing the individual trees in my projects.<br />
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Of course this might all be due to the fact I set those stories aside to write a few more before getting back to the editing desk and looking at them again. Time gives you a fresh perspective, yes, but it's never been this fresh before.<br />
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And so, with that enthusiasm that is not unlike donning a fresh pair of contacts, I have attacked my Isobelle script with a vengeance. I am determined to make it memorable. I expect to have draft two done by the end of the weekend, even though I'll be at the conference. Drafts three and four should be done by the end of October.<br />
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So, writers, are you seeing your material clearly?<br />
Maybe you should take a look at your snackage.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658454920661644617.post-64937458667948454002013-10-06T00:46:00.003-07:002013-10-06T00:46:40.581-07:00Baby Steps Part II October 5, 2013Today I had to follow my own advice. Sit down, open document, start reading. And it worked. I got about the same amount done today--which is not much--but at least I'm forming a habit of it.<br />
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I never actually set aside any working time tonight. The stress around here all but drips from the ceiling like an alien humidity and when the opportunity arose for The Rock and I to leave the house, we ran. We went to see The Family with Robert Dinero. A lot of violence. A few good chuckles. It was just the stress relief we needed.<br />
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My daughter announced she can finally feel improvement. So YAY!<br />
There is now hope that by next week I might have evenings to work at least, so my goals for October are not completely out of reach. I'm also heading off Thursday to Park City to our annual Romance Writers of America conference. It's silly to even try to get any work done, but hey, I'm kinda silly that way. And I've got a lot of lost time to make up for.<br />
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I'm sorry to bore you with personal crap, but I've also lost 3 pounds in the three days since buying airfare to Scotland. It is the craziest thing in the world, but I haven't eaten or wanted to eat sugar or bread or anything unhealthy since that moment. I cannot explain it. I'm starting to get strange headaches that resemble Pepsi withdrawal, but on the opposite side of my head. I assume I'm withdrawing from sugar. How great is that? I don't even take anything for the discomfort because it's a little neon sign that tells me I've made it to some remarkable point.<br />
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Have I been around sugar? Yes. Completely surrounded by it. Was I tempted? NOT EVEN!<br />
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But here is my biggest hope--other than to lose another 61 pounds by the time I board the plane--that my blood sugar lowers to the point I can think more clearly. I'm pinning a lot on losing weight. I'm hoping to get my sense of smell back and that my memory will improve along with all the other obvious benefits. And for the first time in about ten years, I actually believe it is going to happen.<br />
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Tomorrow I'm going to try to carve out some time to edit and defend that time like it means something to me. Because it does.<br />
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Good luck to you too.<br />
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<br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658454920661644617.post-52731468918781359452013-10-04T22:49:00.001-07:002013-10-04T22:49:41.147-07:00I AM A WRITER! October 4, 2013<i>Oh my gosh!</i><br />
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Thank goodness I actually got something done today. I was beginning to worry I was never really going to be a writer ever again. <i>Ever.</i><br />
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I forced myself to open up the document and start reading. Editing just kind of kicks in, doesn't it? It's like a florist walking past a vase of disorderly roses--you can't just keep walking. And we can't just ignore the bad sentence that begs to be fixed, not when it's in our power to fix it, right?<br />
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So. How to get the editing done: sit down, open the doc, start reading. Following Supe's advice for the week, I did not take the time to do any research on missing information. That can happen in the last version. But for now, I'm just trying to shape the thing into what it's going to be. I did take the time to look up a synonym or two. After all, I might miss that awkward word in the next run through. Best to fix it when I can see it. Terms that need more research I just turned red and moved on.<br />
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Six pages. Yep. That's all I got done, but at least I actually DID something for a change instead of just talking about it. It wasn't the twenty pages I was hoping for, but I'm unable to stay up late anymore thanks to my son's new day program that starts at 9 three days a week. And I'm an all or nothing kind of gal. I even had a nap today and it didn't help me stay up later. I'm just going to have to face the fact I'm a morning person now.<br />
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Oy. Somewhere, a world might be coming to an end. It might even be this one.<br />
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Lots of stuff going on tomorrow. I'm going to make sure editing is part of that stuff.<br />
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How did you do?Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658454920661644617.post-22900458323064289112013-10-03T23:44:00.002-07:002013-10-03T23:44:26.283-07:00Best Excuse Ever--October 3, 2013Besides the now-usual slog of distractions I was going to side-step today, in order to get my five hours of editing done, I did something that completely took over my focus and made working impossible.<br />
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I purchased airline tickets for myself and The Rock to fly to Scotland. In April. For THREE WEEKS.<br />
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I'd been planning this trip for a while now. We had hoped to go last April, but The Rock was grounded by a major project at work and we had one last child getting married. So we postponed. It seemed poetic to go for my big birthday, which means we'll be there for the anniversary of the Battle of Culloden Moor. (I can hear some of you yawning.)<br />
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The great surprise that accompanied this airline reservation was an unbelievable end to my appetite. It's like I fell madly in love in the space of time it took to log on, find the flights we wanted, and book the tickets. I have no need for chocolate, suddenly. I'm about as eager to swallow sugar as I am to munch on dog food. And when I think about walking a mile, I can't imagine walking it at all. I want to run. I want to hurry and work off all this fat--and not because I'm worried about fitting in my assigned seat (which is what I suspected my procrastination was coming from)--because I simply feel like I don't need it anymore.<br />
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Isn't that CRAZY? I don't need this fat anymore. Those are the exact words that come to mind. And I ask myself what in the hell I thought I needed this fat for in the first place? And just when did I ever take a bite with the intention of gaining weight?<br />
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Obviously, the answer is NEVER.<br />
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But I do remember one day during my senior year in high school when I realized I didn't need to chew my fingernails anymore. And I didn't. Ever. Except in hangnail emergencies, like everyone else.<br />
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So I hope this works out to be the same. I hope I find it just as difficult to force myself to eat (for nutrition) tomorrow as it was today. In fact, I'm sitting here next to a giant bag of Halloween chocolate, my stomach is growling at me to reach in, and I just don't feel like it.<br />
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In five days, I could have a helluva lot of sugar out of my system!<br />
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So I ask you.<br />
What would it take for you to not need junk food in your life?<br />
For me, I may have traded one addiction for another. I may be addicted to Scotland, and I'm finally going to get my fix.<br />
You see why The Rock is coming along? To drag me home again?<br />
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Tomorrow, I shall edit, or I am not a writer. Oy.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658454920661644617.post-68257498865386930002013-10-02T23:18:00.000-07:002013-10-02T23:19:12.252-07:00New Moon Phase--Time for new goals. October 2, 2013Perhaps, like me, you did not hit your writing goals for the month of September. And perhaps, like me, you hope to do better in October. Maybe you think lowering your goals is the best course of action if you hope to have any success.<br />
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But what if you're wrong?<br />
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What if there is some magic in the air in the month of October? Don't you want to take advantage?<br />
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And don't forget about football.<br />
When it's third-and-five, you pick a play and hope for the best. After all, you can always punt if you fall short of first down.<br />
But when it's third-and-forty, with only enough time on the clock for two more plays, you throw a Hail Mary. Maybe a Flee-flicker, and if that fails, THEN a Hail Mary.<br />
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The point is, we're in the last quarter of the year. With the holidays coming, we're getting down to the wire here. If we're going to accomplish great things, we need to get them done now. We're going to have to get tricky. We're going to have to put our weight into it. Not one or the other. We're going to have to do both.<br />
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So lets take the energy the crowd is offering and go for it.<br />
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Nothing to lose, but the game, maybe the season.<br />
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And since this championship game won't require too much physical exertion, I'm all in, baby. I'm asking myself to put a lot of energy into a sit-down job. How hard can that be, really?<br />
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I'm going to look around and find the goal post--the end zone for me is to get these five projects up like I had planned to do before.<br />
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I'm playing against a lot of big players--my family obligations (caring for my recovering daughter, etc.), some house remodeling, upcoming holidays, excellent TV programs, an overworked husband, etc. And the ringer here is my sudden lack of private office space at home. IN OTHER WORDS, the typical forms of resistance faced by nearly every other writer on any given day.<br />
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I refuse to let the opposing team intimidate me. I'm going to keep my eye on the game clock--about a month and a half--and I'm going to face the ugly truth: It's time to stop analyzing and line up for the kick-off.<br />
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Tomorrow, I'm going to carve out five hours from my day and edit my brains out. Five hours. Even if I have to take five separate hours, I will make it happen. And by tomorrow night, I'm going to feel like a writer again.<br />
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So invite yourself to a bowl game and get on the field. Let me know how it goes.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658454920661644617.post-53316650576094106822013-09-30T22:58:00.000-07:002013-09-30T22:58:51.141-07:00Life is good. September 30thGood news. My daughter is doing well and will be released from the hospital tomorrow. She'll be in pain and it will take a month or two for her to recover, but I still have a daughter. And I this close call has changed us all.<br />
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Today was also the first time I've had a chance to get together with Supe and take a look at where we are. Remembering what life was like before last week, remembering what I used to think was important, was a nice trip down memory lane. But don't get me wrong. I'm still all about getting my butt in the chair and getting the writing done. That will never change. But I'm a lot more interested in the messages I'm embedding in my writing. I think I can be much more clear with my themes. I think my end products might be a little more meaningful.<br />
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Who knows if it will last? We all change a little after we lose someone, or come close to losing someone from our lives. But how easy it is to forget the wake up calls and fall back into our same old mind-sets.<br />
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What I'm interested to see is what changes I might see in my daughter. She's only 24. A little young for a wake up call. A little young for a second chance.<br />
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I think this is a great lesson in how to make one's characters change. See if you've given them a slight nudge or a life changing wake up call. We've got to do our part, right? We can't just expect these people to change their attitudes without proper motivation.<br />
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As for word count, I'm just hoping to get a peek at my manuscript tomorrow. It's The Rock's birthday and we'll be bringing my daughter home, to our home, to stay here until she can take stairs again. On top of all that, I'll be watching the three Mousketeers. But I have to learn how to make room in my busy day for my own work.<br />
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I showed Supe some lovely wood sheds tonight. I'm thinking of putting one in my backyard and calling it my office. After all, the house is about to be invaded on two fronts and a baby crib is going up in the room I now call my office. I'm a little desperate for private space and if there were a couch long enough for The Rock, I'd consider kicking him out of the bedroom to make Custard's last stand in there. But alas, no couch was ever made to fit that man. So I'm stuck.<br />
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Other than space and time, everything is in my favor. But for writers, isn't it always that way?Unknownnoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658454920661644617.post-67283529974277542522013-09-26T22:00:00.001-07:002013-09-26T22:00:47.492-07:00Thursday, Sept. 26Sorry there was nothing yesterday. My daughter had a pulmonary embolism and the world turned upside down. I'm the only grandma, so I had her two-year-old twins and the newborn.<br />
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It's been pretty crazy here, but at least my daughter is still with us. Looks like I'm going to be taking care of her and her 3 daughters for the next month, during the day. Working writing and editing into my day is going to be hard, but I'm still determined to do it. I can't be too adamant about my deadlines, however, until I know just how much of my day is going to be mine.<br />
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I am incredibly thankful to God for sparing her. She has a saddle embolism, and I'm told it is rare indeed to survive one. Most people never make it to the doctor. But now that they've caught it and started thinning her blood, her chances are good. All prayers on her account can be cashed in at the Pearly Gates, of course.<br />
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Come on, people. Let's not forget we've got work to do. Life is short. Don't let those stories go untold.<br />
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658454920661644617.post-37433683269709732412013-09-24T23:09:00.002-07:002013-09-24T23:09:44.051-07:00Tuesday, Sept. 24, Return to real lifeOur retreat cabin had no functioning internet, so I was unable to post all weekend. We went up Friday afternoon and returned yesterday, Monday. We are usually able to arrange for an early check in and late check out so we can have a straight 72 hours to work, but that was not the case this time.<br />
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And so, with a little less time and a whole day's worth of just messing around in the pine trees around Brighton Ski Resort, I ended up with half the 20k goal. I did walk the dragon many times, and dictated for an hour once after I'd crawled into bed--that was a surprising 2900 words in 76 minutes. I never hit that kind of production again, but I did get a lot of walking in. A LOT OF WALKING. I probably got a total of about 3 hours of walking in Saturday and Sunday, and for me, that's phenomenal.<br />
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As for projects, I did finish the first draft of Kiss This, the new Christmas novella. And I got 6000 hard won words added to the Wicked/Wickham project. I also changed my mind a few times about whether or not to even finish that one since the story line is more about the characters themselves than the romance, so while it is an exercise of different muscles than usual, it is an uncomfortable task. In the end, it was yet another email from a patiently waiting reader that tipped the scales. I will finish the book.<br />
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I also took a hard look at what I've been able to accomplish during August and September, and the end result was not what I was expecting. I thought I would have been able to edit much faster than I have. And so my stacks are uneven.<br />
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My pile of stories to be written by the end of October consists of one title left unfinished--Wickham.<br />
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My pile of stories ready for editing includes Isobelle, Mrs. Wiggs, Scavenger Hunting, and Kiss This.<br />
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You see? I'm so lopsided I'm going to be walking funny for a while.<br />
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The solution is obviously to stop writing new words and start edits on the ones I already have. Otherwise I'm going to have to start storing them in proverbial shoe boxes under the proverbial bed.<br />
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So from this point on, probably until the end of October, I'm switching to page counts instead of word counts. I'm going to try to edit at the very minimum ten pages per day. But my average will have to be double that if I'm to get these four books to my editing friends and out of my hands by November. Wickham's last chapters will have to be worked in here and there when I need a break. Hopefully, it will be ready for edits when these four move on.<br />
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I also have a new personal focus plan. I'm going to work on simple, basic self-control. And I'm not talking about diet and exercise. I'm talking about the ability to force myself to do whatever it is I need to do when I need to do it. I'm not sure, but there is every possibility that I have never possessed this capacity before. I think it's high time I cut myself open and see if those muscles exist somewhere beneath my skin.<br />
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How are your self-control muscles doing? Any tips will be appreciated.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1